Free Writing

I had just got yelled at and I have been unhappy about myself. I might run away and never come back to Eastview. I should just drop out since my mom wants me to take care of my own. My boyfriend and my only true love Poly cried because of me. I hate me. what is wrong with "me"? I don't know what to do. I ask God why does he have me stay on earth when I have done nothing but caused trouble in everyone's life including mine. Poly should just go out with someone else because I am a hot mess mentally, phsyically and emotionally. Then my mom should have aborted me when she was pregnant with me. I feel like my number might be pulled in any minute. I would write more but I feel that I can't trust anyone :(